BFP

Now that my family knows, it's time to post the good news. I got a Big Fat Positive on a pregnancy test on Saturday August 22!!

I didn't have any clear signs that I may have been pregnant, but I guess I had a positive feeling. I wasn't going to test because I didn't want to waist money on an expensive test so I was just going to wait to see if Aunt Flo showed up on Monday/Tuesday. As Tim was golfing and I finished cleaning the house, I was kind of bored and just thinking how I'd really like to take a test. Thats when I remembered I still had the second stick from the first time I tested last Dec sitting in my glove box. However, it had been really hot and I didn't think it would be reliable, but I figured, "why not?" Of course I had just used the bathroom so I guzzled some water and waited for about an hour.

At 3:12 I took the test, went into my bedroom to hang a few close and about 5 minutes later I decided to look. I was prepared for it to have one line which would be the indication of negative. I wasn't prepared to see two lines! I stared at it and made sure that it really was two lines. And there was! I began to laugh and cry then really cry and pray. I've been waiting for this for a long time, but now I was terrified. After I stopped crying I text Tim to tell him I missed him and asked when he was going to be home from golfing. It felt like he was gone forever. I pulled out the shirt I bought him a few months ago that says, "daddy rules" and wrapped the stick in it and put it in a gift bag.

When Tim got home he went into the bathroom. I had the gift in my hand and stood outside asking how his game went, obviously not caring one lick. I just wanted him to hurry up. As soon as he got out I handed him the baggy and told him I had a gift for him. He took out the tissue paper and before he took out it's contents he stated, "you're pregnant!". I started jumping up and down and told him yes! He said, "I am so happy you're so happy". And of course he was happy too.

According to the calendar it shows the estimated due date would be cinco de mayo 2010. When I went to the Drs office to get the official test done, the dr asked if I wanted to test my HCG levels since the last pregnancy wasn't viable and to help give me a peace of mind. Of course I took advantage of his offer. In three days my levels quadruppled! Now I know that doesn't mean we're in the clear, but it really did give me a peace of mind. I have my first ultra sound next Monday, 9/14. I'll be a day shy of 7 weeks. We're hoping to see the heart beat... I can't wait, but another nerve racking moment.

My pregnancy symptoms are/have been, lower back ache, sore nipples, heart burn, head aches, bloating/gas, and period like cramps. These are different than from my first. The first time my boobs grew quickly, I had little zits come out on my chest, a twinge of nausea here and there and fatique. Weird how it's so different this time, but perhaps it's a good sign :)

What is interesting about conceiving this cycle is that my sister told me after I got back from HI that she had a positive feeling about my next cycle. And my friend Laura shared that she and her husband conceived after their trip to HI.... so thanks to everyone for their positive affirmations!

From now until Monday all I'll have on my mind is that ultra sound, but I do feel positive. At the same time I feel more prepared if there is a negative outcome. I feel Gods grace and peace and all I can do is submerge myself in prayer and thanksgiving.

I am not sharing this news with everyone (just those on my Thankful Thursday posts and those I know who read my blogs). I'll probably share with my employees and facebook a bit after my ultra sounds since I'm already feeling like my clothes aren't fitting well and I've never been one to keep exciting things going on in my life a secret for long.

I'll keep ya'll updated! Thanks for all the prayers in the past and the continued prayers as Tim and I work on starting our family.