9 Months!

Wow, 9 months already. It’s really hard to wrap my brain around it. I remember giving birth to Kaydriana like it was yesterday. I’m sure I’ll be saying that for the rest of our lives. :) She’s almost been outside of me as long as she was inside-crazy!

Kaydriana no longer seems like a baby to me. I’d consider her more like a toddler. She is becoming so independent- eating with her own little fingers, grunting and reaching to communicate what she wants. She is so mobile and now “furniture walking”. She’s even practiced letting go and standing for a moment. Today I took her to her 9-Month appt. I was sad to hear she has lost weight or didn’t gain any weight (can’t recall) since 6 months. She is eating a lot more, but is also a lot more mobile so I heeded the Drs advice and got her a bunch of new “big kid foods”. Instead of waiting for her 1 yr appt we have to go back in a month for a weight check. I don’t feel like a failure as a mother, just saddened that I’ve let my baby down. Nutrition is so so important at this age for her development and when her dr said it was like she was on a diet I was heart broken. Thankfully she’s a very happy baby and momma and dadda will be sure she is satisfied at every meal!

Sunday was her dedication ceremony. Counting everybody that was there, it was 32 family members and friends that came. I printed one of the group photos and its on my desk at work. It will be my reminder how truly blessed Tim, Kaydriana and I are. My Aunt and Uncle hosted lunch at their house and about 2/3rds of the group came. We ended the lunch with a nice conversation between me, Danielle, Grandma and Aunt Ann. I left feeling so warm and fulfilled – the type of feeling that you only get from the love of family, friends and God. And it didn’t hurt that the Steelers lost the Superbowl :)

As for Tim and I, we’ve certainly adjusted to being parents. Tim is still home with her and it’s funny how I find myself asking what her routine is on my days off. When I was on leave with her, it was all me. Now Tim calls the shots. And I’ve gotta tell ya, it’s been so nice being able to lay her down for a nap and barely a peep comes out of her. That’s all daddy’s doing. Tim is still searching for a full time position. He had an interview for a position, but it wouldn’t have even paid for daycare so that’s not a viable option. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away work 9-11 hr days. Thankfully most days I can coordinate my lunch to be able to come home and feed Kaydriana. The last two nights have been hard because I haven’t been able to and I miss our bedtime routine since I’m working 2-11pm this week.

All in all, the past 9 months has been the best of my life. Even with it’s ups and downs, Kaydriana has made everything worth while, more special, and more meaningful.