I can't believe Kaydriana just turned 4 on Saturday! Kaydriana is such a comedian! When I look at the potential careers my children can have based on their current talents, she can absolutely be a performer! She is funny, clever, theatrical, and brave. She is also exceptionally kind and sweet (when she's not purposefully fighting with her little brother). The other night I was looking through pictures when we visited dad the Easter before he passed and I started bawling. She turned around and asked me what was wrong and then came over and gave me a big hug. She asked me what was wrong and I told her I missed my daddy. She told me he was upstairs (referring to Tim). I I laughed and told her that is her daddy, but that my daddy is in heaven. She stayed close to me and when I put her to bed she asked me if I was still sad. And then the next morning as I was getting ready to walk out the door she asked me if I still missed my daddy. She absolutely has a heart for others and I cannot wait to see her love and compassion shine through as she gets older. She is enrolled in Preschool for the 2014-2015 school year and she gets to go with her best bud, Everett. Oh and I cannot forget what has consumed our lives for the past 5 months - Frozen! Kaydriana is a huge fan and, "Let it Go" is a song sung almost daily at our house :)
Lake is certainly a boys boy. He's rough and tumble and loves to swing the bat at balls, play catch, and kick balls. Just like his sissy, he has no fear - hence both my children are constantly covered in bruises! Lake is finally starting to talk. At his 18 month appointment I was a bit worried because he could hardly (kinda) say 10 words/sounds. He's now saying more words and copies words, even if it's only me who understands them.He is telling me he "I too! " (He loves me too) often and I just adore his little language :) He does get frustrated easily, so we're working on that, as well as listening. Lake is also turning out to be a little comedian. Last weekend we were at my cousin's daughters' birthday party and Lake was hamming it up, mocking a sad/mad face and then batting his eyes, making quite the show of it! Kaydriana - not to be outdone, started singing Let it Go. Love my silly kids!
In other news, we're finally putting the house on the market. It's bitter sweet. This home is where we started our family in. We love our neighborhood and the location. The kids are both old enough now where playing outside with them is enjoyable, especially when our neighbors, the Denistons join us. But with our home being in the Arch program, we're basically glorified renters, but with a tax break because we are home owners. With me stepping down and making way less money and tax purposes, this is the right time to get out of our house. We're planning on getting an apartment so we can pay off debt and save money for a down payment for our 15-20 year home. This week our focus is getting our house staged. We're going through stuff to get rid of or put in storage and will be painting this weekend. Our goal is to have it on the market, Monday 5/19.
Speaking of this weekend, we will be throwing the kids a join birthday party on Saturday. They are young enough that we will be throwing them joint parties until they are old enough to say they don't want that anymore. The weather forecast keeps changing, so I'm a little stressed about having an outdoor party. But hopefully this is the last birthday part that our house is too small to host inside.
As for work, it's okay. I'm at the point where the exploratory part of creating my position is accomplished, so I'm usually quite bored. For the month of May, I am overseeing our department's Children's Hospital Fundraisers. That's giving me a bit more to do at work, but I am ready to get back into the management saddle. I now report to the Director in Yakima and we go way back. I shared with him how so much has changed with me personally that I am really ready to get back into management. He told me he was happy to hear of my aspirations and that he thinks I was a great manager and that I have a charisma that people enjoying working with and for. He was going to share our conversation with our bosses so that when a manager position comes available, that they know I want it.
Over the past several months, I've gained some good perspective. One is what I pretty much new, but needed to prove it to myself: It's not that I don't enjoy working full time, it's that if I'm going to be away from my family for 10 hours a day, I want to be doing something that I feel is worthwhile. Managing in my old department was not - And clearly they couldn't pay me enough to stay. I was miserable! I am much happier now, but I am fully capable of taking on more. I love the hustle and bustle, I love feeling like I'm making a difference, that I matter. I didn't feel that way in my old position. From my vantage point, I see so much that needs to happen, and i want to be that person to make it happen. I have a renewed focus and energy and want to be a manager again. I'm really going to take advantage of my no stress position and enjoy my summer and easy schedule because I'm sure this will be my last one like this.
I am truly grateful that I've had this opportunity and have enjoyed spending more time with my family. A piece of encouragement I received when I was pregnant with Kaydriana from my past boss was that you may not get as much time with your family as you want, but when you do, make it quality time. I've found that more time doesn't equal quality. I find myself losing my patience because lets face it, an almost 2 and 4 year old aren't always the easiest especially when they are "bored". They don't necessarily need MORE time with me, they need more stimulation, playing and learning, which they get with Elisa and their friends. I'm sure I'm not being clear, but basically what I'm saying is, I want to love on them, cherish my time with them, teach and encouragement them, but have come to the realization, especially with Kaydriana starting school - I'm not the only one that has to provide them with entertainment and learning/playing opportunities.
Well, I'm sure I still didn't make what I'm trying to share easy to understand, but thats all I have time for. Kaydriana is laying here in bed with me and we're both hungry for breakfast. I'm hoping it won't take another 5 months for an updated post :)
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