When God says, "Yes"

This past week, I’ve been feeling totally un-deserving of upcoming possibilities, humbled by God's grace and promises, and weak and overwhelmed by stress and anxiety. The Seahawks game against the Broncos almost broke me. While I can say the past 6 months has been full of uncertainty and worry, I feel like everything this past week has come to a head. We are due to close on our home in 3 weeks, I went through my second interview for the manager position, and we received our 3rd complaint regarding the noise from our children at home. At the start of the Seahawks game, I felt like someone was sitting on my chest and I felt slightly dizzy. On my fridge at home I have the verse, "My grace is sufficient; for my strength is made perfect in weakness. -2nd Corinthians 12:9" I had found this verse for a friend of mine whose child was born with disibilities (talk about keeping things in perspective!) But I had no idea how much that verse would be my daily reminder that it's okay for me to feel weak because that is when I need to rely on God the most. My prayer through all of this uncertainty (promotion, house, neighbor complaints) that even if God's answer was no to any of this, that we would be taken care of. We'd still have each other, a roof over our heads, and food on our table. Afterall, not everyone even gets that. But... God said YES! to one of the most pivotal goals we were hoping to accomplish. I just learned this morning that I was re-promoted to manager. As I write this blog entry, I have not told anyone! It's a very hard secret to keep, but my boss hasn't told anyone yet either, so I can't talk to anyone at work. I'm going to wait to tell Tim tonight when I get home. This is a huge deal for our family! It will allow us to afford the house we're hoping to close on in 17 days, give our AMAZING nanny a much needed raise, and God willing (and Tim willing too!) be able to have our third and final baby. This will also mean less time with my family. Becoming a salaried manager means more hours... but not as much as it was in Ecommerce. Also, Membership is completely different than Ecom. While there will be more stress versus the zero work stress I have now, I'll be able to do the manager things I love to do and miss doing. Coaching and mentoring employees, hiring, promoting agents to supervisors, leading, teaching, etc. My old boss that is now my new boss again once told me that it's not about the quantity of time, but the quality of time. And as I've mentioned in a previous post, I have a great "village" that provides my kids love, learning opportunities, adventures, etc. I will always try to be the best mom I can be while also being a wife and a manager at Costco ;)