Well, 1 year and 6 days to be exact. I'm a bit behind and don't think I'll be able to remember all the interesting things that have happened in the past 9 weeks. I’ll start from newest to oldest:
Today was the first time Kaydriana really hurt herself. I let her play on the stairs (yes, I know what a horrible thing to do-especially cuz I kept thinking that I better not let her fall!) but I was impressed that she was remembering what I taught her about going backwards down the stairs (and off the couch). But after a few successful maneuvers she ended up doing a summersault and I can picture her cute little hair up in the pony tail going around and then she slid on her tummy and face a few more stairs-about 10 in all. It’s bringing tears to my eyes right now picture it. Anyway I grab her before she starts round two and discover a few moments later that she has blood pooling out of right side of her mouth. I grab a towel and try to do something with it, but she won’t let me. I found her bottle that she refused to eat earlier and was able to settle her down and she drank it. I just looked at her and was shaking telling her she was ok and that I was sorry. She didn’t have any particular upset or blaming look in her eye, she just looked comforted (Thank God because I don’t think I could have handled the hurt look in her eye). Man! Seeing your baby bleed is a sickening feeling and then knowing it was my fault makes it a lot more upsetting.
I was already feeling bad that she has a bruise on the top of her foot from these decorative blocks I put up in our living room…
Anyway, last week was her first birthday. Her party was a lot of fun (and hectic for mom and dad!) and we had 50 guests total. The weather cooperated for the most part which was a blessing. It was a bit cold and windy, but we had some patches of sun and it only rained for about 5 minutes. We did a Minnie Mouse theme and had ears for the little kids. Kaydriana did a great job of keeping her special Minnie mouse ears on. We BBQd burgers and dogs and I made cupcakes that sat on a Mickey Mouse tower. I made Kaydriana her own big cupcake that she loved eating! She got a lot of great presents. She even received three of the same thing, a Leap Frog My Pal Violet toy. Apparently this is a new and hip toy that many people know about. She absolutely loves it! You can select your own songs, and put your kids names (although we had to choose “Peanut” since ‘Kaydriana’ wasn’t in the catalog of choices and that’s what daddy calls her) and select her fave food, color and animal. She got a lot of cute clothes and fun toys and more books. She is set!
My sister, Breanna got to come and spend a few days with us. I absolutely love time with my sis and we got to spend my first Mothers Day together. I even went along with her while she did a photo shoot for one of my friends. Tim and Kaydri got me this beautiful necklace that is a silhouette of a mom and child with a heart. Very pretty! We met up with Tims parents and had brunch together at New Castle Golf Course. De-lish!
Easter was a very special time. My dad has been diagnosed with Cancer and after a few weeks of back and forth regarding his health, the news came that he has a limited time left on this earth with us. I made the decision that Kaydriana and I were going to go spend Easter with him and the rest of the Jones side of the family. Kaydriana did great on the plane! So Kaydriana’s first Easter was spent in California with her Grandpa and Grandma Jones, Aunt Breanna, Uncle Will, Cousin Reid, Uncle Robby, Aunt Jordan, Great Uncle Greg and Aunt Jonna, and second cousins, Chris and Kailyn. We even saw Kyle for a brief time. This was Kaydriana’s first holiday with Grandpa and perhaps her last and it was very special. She and Reid got absolutely spoiled with gifts, Easter Egg hunt and even more gifts. Breanna and I even made them take a bath together for future embarrassment possibilities J I don’t think Reid really knew what to do with his little cousin, but Kaydriana seemed to really like him. Both kids really seemed to enjoy the extra attention and loves.
Within the past few months some of Kaydriana’s miles stones were: taking a few steps, standing/dancing/squatting without holding on, pointing to momma’s nose, saying momma and dada (although not totally going to make them her official first words just yet), has her 7th tooth and it appears a molar is coming in, graduated to the wobbler room in daycare, she started doing this huge smile thing with all of her little teeth showing, she likes to be chased and “scared” by daddy- she gets really excited in anticipation, she has started to give hugs and what I perceive to be kisses (putting her face on my face), she signs “all done” when she’s done eating and has her own sign for “momma”, when she wants me to sing twinkle twinkle little star, she does the finger movements, she loves to play peek a boo – especially when she has the blanket to cover herself or you with, when she hears applause on tv or people say, “yay” she claps, and when you say, “what does Griffey do?” she pants like a dog. She may not be walking and talking yet, but she’s got her own set of adorable skills!
I guess that’s all I can think of for now. I really wanted to get this recorded so I can remember what she accomplished when. I can’t wait to look back and see how far she has come.
As for me… well Kaydriana hasn’t been doing all that well with sleeping through the night since we went to California. I think it was a mixture of messing up her routine, a new tooth coming in, and now she’s got her 3rd cold since starting daycare. Also I think that she’s going through a growth spurt because I hear her tummy growling when she wakes up at 2am. So I’ve been extremely tired. I’m up to three cups of coffee a day. I used to only drink 1 and only in the morning. I think the lack of sleep and then added caffeine is aggravating my issues with anxiety and creating heart palpitations. I’ve been trying to break Kaydriana’s routine of waking up in the middle of the night but when I hear her little tummy growl I know I can’t ignore that. It’s been a very hard past few weeks!
Monday, May 16, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
10 Months and a bit more...
Tomorrow is Kaydriana's 10-month birthday, but to be honest I feel a little cheated on time because February is a short month.
Today we had a follow up appt to check on her weight since she lost weight between 8 and 9 months. She has gained 2.3lbs and is now at a whopping 19.1 lbs! I was so relieved to know that she is healthy and right where she needs to be.
Kaydriana hasn't said her first words yet, but she talks and (I believe) sings all the time. She's been saying, "dadada" for a while now, and I hadn't heard her make any, "mmmm" sounds. So every opportunity I get I say, "momma" and press her lips together to show her how to make an "m" sound. Finally she mimmicked me twice and said something close to, "momma". But in my opinion it doesn't officially count until she looks at me and says it. She is starting to realize the words though. A few days ago I said, "Griffey" and she looked at him, then I said, "daddy" and she looked at daddy and then I said, "momma" and she looked at me. That made me very happy!
She is cruising around on her little riding/walking toy. And sometimes she'll give her knees a break when crawling and put her feet on the floor and walk on her feet and hands. It's a funny site! She's a bit of a daredevil. Right before bed time she gets a second wind and loves to be up on the couch where she'll climb over me and Tim and pillows and tumbles. If she gets an invigorating tumble she laughs. I love it! But of course we have to be right there so she doesn't tumble right off the couch while seeking her thrill. She loves to climb on anything just about her size.
Our little smarty pants also discovered a trick. On Saturday 2/28 I was out with the girls and had finally taken a Costco sized box of diapers out of my trunk. They didn't make their way upstairs yet so Kaydriana scooted the box over to the couch where she used the box to climb up on the couch! Maybe we have a genius on our hands!? :P
Some things are coming to end. I'm still breast feeding, but Kaydriana now drinks more formula than she does breastmilk. On the days that I work I'm guessing she is only getting 12-20 oz of BM. The past few weeks she has become very distracted while nursing and this week she has been biting me. Not too hard, but hard enough that it hurts. I really really want to nurse until she is 1 year old, but I don't know if that is going to happen. I know I'll be so sad when that final feeding comes!
The other thing coming to an end is Stay at Home Daddy. This is great news! Tim found out that he will be starting back at Mercer Island for a seasonal position in April. We're still hoping for a permanent city job, but for now this is good. We found a great daycare called the Issaquah Children's Acadamy. Tim's mom knows the owner and we toured it and absolutely love it! It's quite spendy, but I think Kaydriana will thrive in their environment. They are teaching centered and the kids looked so happy to be there. Kaydriana is such a busy body that playing with other kids her age and learning on a daily basis will be so good for her.
Today we had a follow up appt to check on her weight since she lost weight between 8 and 9 months. She has gained 2.3lbs and is now at a whopping 19.1 lbs! I was so relieved to know that she is healthy and right where she needs to be.
Kaydriana hasn't said her first words yet, but she talks and (I believe) sings all the time. She's been saying, "dadada" for a while now, and I hadn't heard her make any, "mmmm" sounds. So every opportunity I get I say, "momma" and press her lips together to show her how to make an "m" sound. Finally she mimmicked me twice and said something close to, "momma". But in my opinion it doesn't officially count until she looks at me and says it. She is starting to realize the words though. A few days ago I said, "Griffey" and she looked at him, then I said, "daddy" and she looked at daddy and then I said, "momma" and she looked at me. That made me very happy!
She is cruising around on her little riding/walking toy. And sometimes she'll give her knees a break when crawling and put her feet on the floor and walk on her feet and hands. It's a funny site! She's a bit of a daredevil. Right before bed time she gets a second wind and loves to be up on the couch where she'll climb over me and Tim and pillows and tumbles. If she gets an invigorating tumble she laughs. I love it! But of course we have to be right there so she doesn't tumble right off the couch while seeking her thrill. She loves to climb on anything just about her size.
Our little smarty pants also discovered a trick. On Saturday 2/28 I was out with the girls and had finally taken a Costco sized box of diapers out of my trunk. They didn't make their way upstairs yet so Kaydriana scooted the box over to the couch where she used the box to climb up on the couch! Maybe we have a genius on our hands!? :P
Some things are coming to end. I'm still breast feeding, but Kaydriana now drinks more formula than she does breastmilk. On the days that I work I'm guessing she is only getting 12-20 oz of BM. The past few weeks she has become very distracted while nursing and this week she has been biting me. Not too hard, but hard enough that it hurts. I really really want to nurse until she is 1 year old, but I don't know if that is going to happen. I know I'll be so sad when that final feeding comes!
The other thing coming to an end is Stay at Home Daddy. This is great news! Tim found out that he will be starting back at Mercer Island for a seasonal position in April. We're still hoping for a permanent city job, but for now this is good. We found a great daycare called the Issaquah Children's Acadamy. Tim's mom knows the owner and we toured it and absolutely love it! It's quite spendy, but I think Kaydriana will thrive in their environment. They are teaching centered and the kids looked so happy to be there. Kaydriana is such a busy body that playing with other kids her age and learning on a daily basis will be so good for her.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
9 Months!
Wow, 9 months already. It’s really hard to wrap my brain around it. I remember giving birth to Kaydriana like it was yesterday. I’m sure I’ll be saying that for the rest of our lives. :) She’s almost been outside of me as long as she was inside-crazy!
Kaydriana no longer seems like a baby to me. I’d consider her more like a toddler. She is becoming so independent- eating with her own little fingers, grunting and reaching to communicate what she wants. She is so mobile and now “furniture walking”. She’s even practiced letting go and standing for a moment. Today I took her to her 9-Month appt. I was sad to hear she has lost weight or didn’t gain any weight (can’t recall) since 6 months. She is eating a lot more, but is also a lot more mobile so I heeded the Drs advice and got her a bunch of new “big kid foods”. Instead of waiting for her 1 yr appt we have to go back in a month for a weight check. I don’t feel like a failure as a mother, just saddened that I’ve let my baby down. Nutrition is so so important at this age for her development and when her dr said it was like she was on a diet I was heart broken. Thankfully she’s a very happy baby and momma and dadda will be sure she is satisfied at every meal!
Sunday was her dedication ceremony. Counting everybody that was there, it was 32 family members and friends that came. I printed one of the group photos and its on my desk at work. It will be my reminder how truly blessed Tim, Kaydriana and I are. My Aunt and Uncle hosted lunch at their house and about 2/3rds of the group came. We ended the lunch with a nice conversation between me, Danielle, Grandma and Aunt Ann. I left feeling so warm and fulfilled – the type of feeling that you only get from the love of family, friends and God. And it didn’t hurt that the Steelers lost the Superbowl :)
As for Tim and I, we’ve certainly adjusted to being parents. Tim is still home with her and it’s funny how I find myself asking what her routine is on my days off. When I was on leave with her, it was all me. Now Tim calls the shots. And I’ve gotta tell ya, it’s been so nice being able to lay her down for a nap and barely a peep comes out of her. That’s all daddy’s doing. Tim is still searching for a full time position. He had an interview for a position, but it wouldn’t have even paid for daycare so that’s not a viable option. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away work 9-11 hr days. Thankfully most days I can coordinate my lunch to be able to come home and feed Kaydriana. The last two nights have been hard because I haven’t been able to and I miss our bedtime routine since I’m working 2-11pm this week.
All in all, the past 9 months has been the best of my life. Even with it’s ups and downs, Kaydriana has made everything worth while, more special, and more meaningful.
Kaydriana no longer seems like a baby to me. I’d consider her more like a toddler. She is becoming so independent- eating with her own little fingers, grunting and reaching to communicate what she wants. She is so mobile and now “furniture walking”. She’s even practiced letting go and standing for a moment. Today I took her to her 9-Month appt. I was sad to hear she has lost weight or didn’t gain any weight (can’t recall) since 6 months. She is eating a lot more, but is also a lot more mobile so I heeded the Drs advice and got her a bunch of new “big kid foods”. Instead of waiting for her 1 yr appt we have to go back in a month for a weight check. I don’t feel like a failure as a mother, just saddened that I’ve let my baby down. Nutrition is so so important at this age for her development and when her dr said it was like she was on a diet I was heart broken. Thankfully she’s a very happy baby and momma and dadda will be sure she is satisfied at every meal!
Sunday was her dedication ceremony. Counting everybody that was there, it was 32 family members and friends that came. I printed one of the group photos and its on my desk at work. It will be my reminder how truly blessed Tim, Kaydriana and I are. My Aunt and Uncle hosted lunch at their house and about 2/3rds of the group came. We ended the lunch with a nice conversation between me, Danielle, Grandma and Aunt Ann. I left feeling so warm and fulfilled – the type of feeling that you only get from the love of family, friends and God. And it didn’t hurt that the Steelers lost the Superbowl :)
As for Tim and I, we’ve certainly adjusted to being parents. Tim is still home with her and it’s funny how I find myself asking what her routine is on my days off. When I was on leave with her, it was all me. Now Tim calls the shots. And I’ve gotta tell ya, it’s been so nice being able to lay her down for a nap and barely a peep comes out of her. That’s all daddy’s doing. Tim is still searching for a full time position. He had an interview for a position, but it wouldn’t have even paid for daycare so that’s not a viable option. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away work 9-11 hr days. Thankfully most days I can coordinate my lunch to be able to come home and feed Kaydriana. The last two nights have been hard because I haven’t been able to and I miss our bedtime routine since I’m working 2-11pm this week.
All in all, the past 9 months has been the best of my life. Even with it’s ups and downs, Kaydriana has made everything worth while, more special, and more meaningful.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Connection
Christmas day is always so hectic, but I wanted to make sure I took the time to reflect on what Christmas means and specifically what it means to me. So the weeks leading up to Christmas I would use my 10 minute commute to and from work (40 min total since I go home to feed Kaydriana during lunch) to listen to Christmas music and praise God and thank Him for giving us His Son and blessing me and my family.
I heard Faith Hills, "A Baby Changes Everything" song. For the first time in my life I really felt a connection to Mary. Now that I have a baby, when I heard those lyrics (and Mary Did You Know and another one that I heard for the first time this year) I picture Kaydriana. No, I'm not comparing her to Jesus-but I picture Mary holding her son, her sweet baby boy who needs his mom to take care of him, love him, teach him, etc. Mary knew her son was something extra special. What an amazing feeling to be a mom-could you imagine the love and pride and joy she felt as he grew and learned new milestones? What kind of boy was he? How did she entertain him? What games did they play? Did he cry when he was hungry? Did Mary grow weary when Jesus was up all night teething? What have I experienced being a new mommy that Mary did as well?
Being a mom has connected me to millions and millions of mothers all over the world and throughout history. I've never felt this type of connectivity before. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this insight.
Moving on to Christmas... as I mentioned Christmas is hectic. Christmas Eve, I cooked the "Costco Turkey" along with some side dishes and my mom brought my little sister and brother over along with "Aunt Norma's Potatos". My older brother was spending the evening with his girlfriend and her family. We opened presents and watched some of the old claymation classics like Rudolph the Rednosed Reigndeer. We ate so much (and fast!) that we didn't end up eating the berry pie my mom brought.
Christmas day, Kaydriana (our little alarm clock) woke us up about 615am. I fed her and then went downstairs to see what Santa brought her. I'd like to say her eyes lit up and a smile grew on her face, but it really wasn't all that exciting to her. Tim put her on her big "Santa gift" which was a giraffe and I took pictures of her. Then we sat around her to open presents and she'd get fixated on a piece of paper she'd have in her hand. She protested when we would remove the paper and try to get her to open her next gift. Meanwhile, Griffey squeeked his new toys and kept trying to be in the mix with us while we opened our gifts.
After our intimate family time, we packed up and headed to Tim's parents where on the way we learned that our niece, Anna was in the emergency room. The Drs still aren't sure whats going on, but she did make it to Nana and Papas for Christmas dinner and presents. After about 20 minutes I took Kaydriana and we headed to my Aunts house so we could say hi to everyone for a moment then went back to Tims parents to finish the evening. I also got to talk with my dad and step mom, my sister and my niece in MI. I don't usually have a lot of time to talk on the phone, so at least car rides allow me the opportunity for calls to my family.
Although nothing spectacular happened per se, I'd have to say it was one of the nicest and memorable Christmas's I've ever had... A baby changes everything is right!
I heard Faith Hills, "A Baby Changes Everything" song. For the first time in my life I really felt a connection to Mary. Now that I have a baby, when I heard those lyrics (and Mary Did You Know and another one that I heard for the first time this year) I picture Kaydriana. No, I'm not comparing her to Jesus-but I picture Mary holding her son, her sweet baby boy who needs his mom to take care of him, love him, teach him, etc. Mary knew her son was something extra special. What an amazing feeling to be a mom-could you imagine the love and pride and joy she felt as he grew and learned new milestones? What kind of boy was he? How did she entertain him? What games did they play? Did he cry when he was hungry? Did Mary grow weary when Jesus was up all night teething? What have I experienced being a new mommy that Mary did as well?
Being a mom has connected me to millions and millions of mothers all over the world and throughout history. I've never felt this type of connectivity before. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this insight.
Moving on to Christmas... as I mentioned Christmas is hectic. Christmas Eve, I cooked the "Costco Turkey" along with some side dishes and my mom brought my little sister and brother over along with "Aunt Norma's Potatos". My older brother was spending the evening with his girlfriend and her family. We opened presents and watched some of the old claymation classics like Rudolph the Rednosed Reigndeer. We ate so much (and fast!) that we didn't end up eating the berry pie my mom brought.
Christmas day, Kaydriana (our little alarm clock) woke us up about 615am. I fed her and then went downstairs to see what Santa brought her. I'd like to say her eyes lit up and a smile grew on her face, but it really wasn't all that exciting to her. Tim put her on her big "Santa gift" which was a giraffe and I took pictures of her. Then we sat around her to open presents and she'd get fixated on a piece of paper she'd have in her hand. She protested when we would remove the paper and try to get her to open her next gift. Meanwhile, Griffey squeeked his new toys and kept trying to be in the mix with us while we opened our gifts.
After our intimate family time, we packed up and headed to Tim's parents where on the way we learned that our niece, Anna was in the emergency room. The Drs still aren't sure whats going on, but she did make it to Nana and Papas for Christmas dinner and presents. After about 20 minutes I took Kaydriana and we headed to my Aunts house so we could say hi to everyone for a moment then went back to Tims parents to finish the evening. I also got to talk with my dad and step mom, my sister and my niece in MI. I don't usually have a lot of time to talk on the phone, so at least car rides allow me the opportunity for calls to my family.
Although nothing spectacular happened per se, I'd have to say it was one of the nicest and memorable Christmas's I've ever had... A baby changes everything is right!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Our baby is not such a baby anymore!
Oh man, our lil poo bear is not a baby anymore! Ever since she hit 6 months old, she has transitioned from being a baby to becoming a toddler. She got her first tooth (now has two), started to do the splits thing that eventually turned into her learning how to sit on her own, can pick up cereal and place it in her mouth, started crawling, and two days ago used the shelf in the fridge to stand herself up.
What happened to my stationary little bug? She is already 7 months old and before I know it she'll be 1 going on 18.
Kaydriana has had a rough time with teething. She gets very whiny and sometimes downright unconsolable. We now go about 2-3 nights a week where she wakes up crying. Many times she'll get herself back to sleep but other nights only loves from mommy or daddy will get her back to sleep.
This week has been extremely rough! I went away last weekend for my 30th birthday to Vegas. It was hard being away from Kaydriana that long, but I had fun. The last day I regretted booking an afternoon flight. I should have booked the first flight home. When I got home I did not want to let her go and I think maybe she felt the same way. That night and the next two she didn't want to sleep and I was forced to try to function with only 4 hours of sleep for three days. Last night I finally got about 6 hours, THANK GOD! I'm still exhausted, but at least not dizzy feeling. (I turned into a wall on Tuesday after making a very firm statement to an employee... I'm sure my authoratitive tone was lost once I looked like a goober).
I'm off the next two days and while I should probably come into work for a few hours I really think that I deserve some me time with my baby. Daddy is going snowboarding all day tomorrow and as a family we have a wedding and a dinner to attend on Saturday.
Okay, so now I'm just rambling. My point of all this is my baby is growing up so fast and I feel like I missing some of it. I want to capture every moment and not let any slip by. No more weekend trips for me for a long time!
What happened to my stationary little bug? She is already 7 months old and before I know it she'll be 1 going on 18.
Kaydriana has had a rough time with teething. She gets very whiny and sometimes downright unconsolable. We now go about 2-3 nights a week where she wakes up crying. Many times she'll get herself back to sleep but other nights only loves from mommy or daddy will get her back to sleep.
This week has been extremely rough! I went away last weekend for my 30th birthday to Vegas. It was hard being away from Kaydriana that long, but I had fun. The last day I regretted booking an afternoon flight. I should have booked the first flight home. When I got home I did not want to let her go and I think maybe she felt the same way. That night and the next two she didn't want to sleep and I was forced to try to function with only 4 hours of sleep for three days. Last night I finally got about 6 hours, THANK GOD! I'm still exhausted, but at least not dizzy feeling. (I turned into a wall on Tuesday after making a very firm statement to an employee... I'm sure my authoratitive tone was lost once I looked like a goober).
I'm off the next two days and while I should probably come into work for a few hours I really think that I deserve some me time with my baby. Daddy is going snowboarding all day tomorrow and as a family we have a wedding and a dinner to attend on Saturday.
Okay, so now I'm just rambling. My point of all this is my baby is growing up so fast and I feel like I missing some of it. I want to capture every moment and not let any slip by. No more weekend trips for me for a long time!
Thursday, November 18, 2010
We Survived!! (I think)
Oh boy! If someone would have told me what this past week would hold, I would have said I wouldn't know how to deal with it. But we did it!
We experienced Kaydriana's first cold. It wasn't too bad. For the most part she was in good spirits. But then she gave it to daddy, which eventually passed on to me. Having two sick parents taking care of a sick baby is not a good combination. To make matters more interesting, she got her first tooth and her first minor ear ache. Poor baby.
Tim and I start to feel a bit better and I decide that I cannot live with my ingrown toenail any longer and get it removed.
Hichi momma did that hurt!!! I regret doing it. It's been 6 days and I'm still in pain. I haven't been able to wear normal shoes. The Monday after the procedure, I had ran out of vicodin. I had gone back to the dr that morning because I was in so much pain and my toe looked infected. Tim had to drive me because I couldn't. Well, earlier that morning Tim threw up- we still don't know why. After he picked me up from the dr, I was hoping to pick up my refill of pain meds. But Tim felt so sick that he just wanted to rush home. As soon as he walked in the door he threw up. Yuck!
So here I am, not able to drive - in a lot of pain and Tim can't drive because he is so sick. I had to be at work at 2pm! I emailed my boss to say that I'm in a predicament and she came to my rescue. She got me my prescription and I was able to get to work. Tim started feeling well enough to watch Kaydriana on his own for the rest of the day.
Phew! What a trying week!
We experienced Kaydriana's first cold. It wasn't too bad. For the most part she was in good spirits. But then she gave it to daddy, which eventually passed on to me. Having two sick parents taking care of a sick baby is not a good combination. To make matters more interesting, she got her first tooth and her first minor ear ache. Poor baby.
Tim and I start to feel a bit better and I decide that I cannot live with my ingrown toenail any longer and get it removed.
Hichi momma did that hurt!!! I regret doing it. It's been 6 days and I'm still in pain. I haven't been able to wear normal shoes. The Monday after the procedure, I had ran out of vicodin. I had gone back to the dr that morning because I was in so much pain and my toe looked infected. Tim had to drive me because I couldn't. Well, earlier that morning Tim threw up- we still don't know why. After he picked me up from the dr, I was hoping to pick up my refill of pain meds. But Tim felt so sick that he just wanted to rush home. As soon as he walked in the door he threw up. Yuck!
So here I am, not able to drive - in a lot of pain and Tim can't drive because he is so sick. I had to be at work at 2pm! I emailed my boss to say that I'm in a predicament and she came to my rescue. She got me my prescription and I was able to get to work. Tim started feeling well enough to watch Kaydriana on his own for the rest of the day.
Phew! What a trying week!
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Adjusting...
I write this today in the midst of some major life adjustments.
I went back to work 7 weeks ago and it's been hard. I've been self minded about how I'm dealing with missing Kaydriana and getting back into the groove of having to use my brain, deal with escalated situations and handle personnel issues. Every moment of every day I'm doing something. If I'm at my desk - I'm working (well mostly ;) ) if I'm not, I'm pumping or cleaning my pumping equipment, or running home to feed Kaydriana, changing her, loving on her, playing with her, paying bills, trying to scarf food and maybe if I'm lucky I might get about an hour to sit and relax and watch TV or get on the computer before bed and doing it all over again.
I knew all of this would happen and now I'm used to it. But I wasn't really focused on how this is all affecting Tim. The love of my life who is a wonderful father is staying home with Kaydriana.
The weather has changed so daddy can't always go on walks when he wants to get out of the house and running errands with Kaydri can be hard in weather like this. I know he gets bored and he is looking for a full time job. He's used to working, which he enjoys. I know he would much rather be working than at home every day. He was dropping Kaydri off at his parents once a week so he can go to the gym or golf, but they are currently in AZ so he doesn't really get a break.
So we're both going through the same thing in a sense.
The funny thing is, we wished the rolls were reversed. I'd love nothing more than to be in his position and he in mine. We'd both be happier... God knows what He is doing in our lives, I just pray that we can get through this with grace and be able to look back at how precious these memories of our young family are.
Building our family is what I've always wanted and I knew not everything was going to be rainbows and gum drops. I still love every moment of being a mommy and a wife and I know God will continue to bless us. Sometimes I just need to remind myself of that.
I went back to work 7 weeks ago and it's been hard. I've been self minded about how I'm dealing with missing Kaydriana and getting back into the groove of having to use my brain, deal with escalated situations and handle personnel issues. Every moment of every day I'm doing something. If I'm at my desk - I'm working (well mostly ;) ) if I'm not, I'm pumping or cleaning my pumping equipment, or running home to feed Kaydriana, changing her, loving on her, playing with her, paying bills, trying to scarf food and maybe if I'm lucky I might get about an hour to sit and relax and watch TV or get on the computer before bed and doing it all over again.
I knew all of this would happen and now I'm used to it. But I wasn't really focused on how this is all affecting Tim. The love of my life who is a wonderful father is staying home with Kaydriana.
The weather has changed so daddy can't always go on walks when he wants to get out of the house and running errands with Kaydri can be hard in weather like this. I know he gets bored and he is looking for a full time job. He's used to working, which he enjoys. I know he would much rather be working than at home every day. He was dropping Kaydri off at his parents once a week so he can go to the gym or golf, but they are currently in AZ so he doesn't really get a break.
So we're both going through the same thing in a sense.
The funny thing is, we wished the rolls were reversed. I'd love nothing more than to be in his position and he in mine. We'd both be happier... God knows what He is doing in our lives, I just pray that we can get through this with grace and be able to look back at how precious these memories of our young family are.
Building our family is what I've always wanted and I knew not everything was going to be rainbows and gum drops. I still love every moment of being a mommy and a wife and I know God will continue to bless us. Sometimes I just need to remind myself of that.
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