I recently read a blog where this "blog expert" says to keep readers reading your blog, you should post frequently enough to keep their attention. Well, I suck at that. But I started to think, while I love to keep my friends and family updated, these blog posts really are for me.
I love to journal. I've kept a diary/journal since elementary school, and I still have each book.
It's hilarious to read the old stuff now... in fact I saw on Evening Magazine there is a place where they have people read their old journal entries. I could probably get a few laughs with some of my entries, especially the ones about Timmy from highschool...
Okay thats not the point of this.
The point is this blog is journal entries about our (okay MY, really) journy in parenthood and to log Kaydriana's milestones from conception on.
So if I've lost readers because I don't post often (or that entertaining), thats fine. One day I'll print this out to some book of sorts to keep and share with Kaydriana when she's older.
Okay, on to what "baby-cakes", "Peanut", "KD" is up to. Well, since starting to walk, she has transformed from a baby to a little person- a toddler. She baby talks so much. I LOVE LOVE all of her little Kaydriana words. A lot of times she asks a question and nods her head to try to get me to understand. She gets a bit frustrated if I can't figure out what she's asking for so a lot of times I have to pick her up so she can reach what she wants. Usually, it's not something that she's allowed to have so then she gets mad.
She does say a few words. "Mama", "dada", "banana" (pronounced "nana"), "uh oh", "busy- busy- busy" (because thats what I tell her as she just walks around doing random stuff), and "this" in a high pitched question.
About two weeks ago or so she started to give Tim and I kisses and blows kisses to us. I adore her kisses even if that means we get her grimeys on us; totally worth it!
She can climb up on the couch on her own which I don't like because she's a bit of a daredevil and falls often.
She is her mothers daughter and is so accident prone. Today she fell outside on the front step and has scrapes on her little nose. She fell off the couch last week and got a nice little purple knot on her forehead. Thankfully none have been as scarey as the time she flipped down the stairs!
It's been rough lately at daycare. There isn't a week that goes by the past 5-6 weeks where daycare isn't calling me warning me of a fever, a head bonk that "isn't an emergency but she may have a concussion", diarrhea and throwing up. I really wish I could leave and take care of my baby every time I get a call, but I have a job to do and I always feel so torn.
Today I didn't have to work until 2pm and Tim had the day off. She was totally fine when I left but then she got a fever of 104, started to become lethargic, and didn't want to eat. She was really fussy too. But after coaching Tim to give her some fever reducer and a luke warm bath, she seemed to get better. We'll just keep an eye on her... as always. Thankfully nothing serious enough to take her to urgent care...yet.
Kaydriana had a fun 4th of July. We went to a parade where Tim's dad road his motorcycle, then we went to Tim's sisters for food and fireworks. Kaydriana did very well with the fire works and wasn't scared of the loud noises at all. Of course I covered her ears when the big guns came out. She fell asleep in my arms and while I wanted to play with sparklers and stuff, I never just get to sit with her still in my arms and I truly cherished it. And the fireworks were awesome! My BIL goes all out!
I mentioned above the new things Kaydriana is doing and I forgot to mention a few others. She loves slides! She gets mad when it's time to come home since dada and momma can only help her go down the slide so many times without getting bored. It's annoying that the end of the slide has like a 1-1.5 ft jump to the ground. Who designed this thing? Oh, probably the same geniouses who though dirt was a good decoration to put between where we park and the sidewalk into our house...
The other thing she is doing is using a spoon. This hasn't been perfected yet, but as long as I keep an eye on her and guide her once in a while, she can hold the spoon right, dish up her food and put it in her mouth. Where she goes awry is when she gets too much on her spoon, misses her face or decides her non-spooned hand is too clean and she needs to shovel food in mouth. I love every messy moment of it :)
On non baby related, but is family related news-Tim put in an application for the city of Shoreline. It closed Friday so I am praying that God might answer this prayer for a job with a YES so that we can explore options for our family. If the answer is not a yes, I pray God will provide for our family and give us the coping ability to get through this period in our life.
Some of you may not know that I am really, really, really wanting to expand our family and work less. The key to making any of that happening is Tim getting a permanet, good paying job.
Patience and waiting, patience and waiting, and being faithful.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
We’ve got a walker!
Kaydriana has been an official walker for a week and 1 day.
She walks like she’s had a few drinks, certainly not sure footed yet. The first couple of days she’d get so excited as she made her way on two feet and would make a grunting laughing noise. She falls on her bum a lot, but she doesn’t usually mind too much. I love that she now walks into my arms and gives me loves. Melts my heart each time!
She started wanting to climb things and wants to crawl up the stairs instead of being carried; lil’ miss independent.
Some other new things she is doing is saying a version of “uh oh” but it’s more like, “o’oh” and blowing kisses. I absolutely adore her sweet little voice and love the noises that come out of her mouth, especially as she’s practicing “th, b, p” noises.
She has 11 teeth now, including one molar. She just started slobbering a bunch again so that must mean more are on their way.
I successfully nursed Kaydriana for the last time about 3 days ago. I tried nursing her twice after that but milk was slow to come and she gave up so that chapter of our relationship is over. In a way I’m glad I didn’t know it was the last time because I think I would have cried.
She got her first ‘in the salon’ bang cut yesterday. She did great, but I hate it! Cut, blunt bangs make her look older. I prefer the wispiness of baby hair.
Today Kaydriana went with daddy to the Mariner’s Vs Yankees game. Tim says it was one of his favorite days ever and the best Mariners game he’s ever gone to. Unfortunately I had to work today so I missed out, and it sounds like they had a great time. Tomorrow is Memorial Day so Tim, Kaydriana and I are headed to Leavenworth for the day. Weather will be warmer over the pass so we’ll enjoy some sun and food
She walks like she’s had a few drinks, certainly not sure footed yet. The first couple of days she’d get so excited as she made her way on two feet and would make a grunting laughing noise. She falls on her bum a lot, but she doesn’t usually mind too much. I love that she now walks into my arms and gives me loves. Melts my heart each time!
She started wanting to climb things and wants to crawl up the stairs instead of being carried; lil’ miss independent.
Some other new things she is doing is saying a version of “uh oh” but it’s more like, “o’oh” and blowing kisses. I absolutely adore her sweet little voice and love the noises that come out of her mouth, especially as she’s practicing “th, b, p” noises.
She has 11 teeth now, including one molar. She just started slobbering a bunch again so that must mean more are on their way.
I successfully nursed Kaydriana for the last time about 3 days ago. I tried nursing her twice after that but milk was slow to come and she gave up so that chapter of our relationship is over. In a way I’m glad I didn’t know it was the last time because I think I would have cried.
She got her first ‘in the salon’ bang cut yesterday. She did great, but I hate it! Cut, blunt bangs make her look older. I prefer the wispiness of baby hair.
Today Kaydriana went with daddy to the Mariner’s Vs Yankees game. Tim says it was one of his favorite days ever and the best Mariners game he’s ever gone to. Unfortunately I had to work today so I missed out, and it sounds like they had a great time. Tomorrow is Memorial Day so Tim, Kaydriana and I are headed to Leavenworth for the day. Weather will be warmer over the pass so we’ll enjoy some sun and food
Monday, May 16, 2011
One Year!
Well, 1 year and 6 days to be exact. I'm a bit behind and don't think I'll be able to remember all the interesting things that have happened in the past 9 weeks. I’ll start from newest to oldest:
Today was the first time Kaydriana really hurt herself. I let her play on the stairs (yes, I know what a horrible thing to do-especially cuz I kept thinking that I better not let her fall!) but I was impressed that she was remembering what I taught her about going backwards down the stairs (and off the couch). But after a few successful maneuvers she ended up doing a summersault and I can picture her cute little hair up in the pony tail going around and then she slid on her tummy and face a few more stairs-about 10 in all. It’s bringing tears to my eyes right now picture it. Anyway I grab her before she starts round two and discover a few moments later that she has blood pooling out of right side of her mouth. I grab a towel and try to do something with it, but she won’t let me. I found her bottle that she refused to eat earlier and was able to settle her down and she drank it. I just looked at her and was shaking telling her she was ok and that I was sorry. She didn’t have any particular upset or blaming look in her eye, she just looked comforted (Thank God because I don’t think I could have handled the hurt look in her eye). Man! Seeing your baby bleed is a sickening feeling and then knowing it was my fault makes it a lot more upsetting.
I was already feeling bad that she has a bruise on the top of her foot from these decorative blocks I put up in our living room…
Anyway, last week was her first birthday. Her party was a lot of fun (and hectic for mom and dad!) and we had 50 guests total. The weather cooperated for the most part which was a blessing. It was a bit cold and windy, but we had some patches of sun and it only rained for about 5 minutes. We did a Minnie Mouse theme and had ears for the little kids. Kaydriana did a great job of keeping her special Minnie mouse ears on. We BBQd burgers and dogs and I made cupcakes that sat on a Mickey Mouse tower. I made Kaydriana her own big cupcake that she loved eating! She got a lot of great presents. She even received three of the same thing, a Leap Frog My Pal Violet toy. Apparently this is a new and hip toy that many people know about. She absolutely loves it! You can select your own songs, and put your kids names (although we had to choose “Peanut” since ‘Kaydriana’ wasn’t in the catalog of choices and that’s what daddy calls her) and select her fave food, color and animal. She got a lot of cute clothes and fun toys and more books. She is set!
My sister, Breanna got to come and spend a few days with us. I absolutely love time with my sis and we got to spend my first Mothers Day together. I even went along with her while she did a photo shoot for one of my friends. Tim and Kaydri got me this beautiful necklace that is a silhouette of a mom and child with a heart. Very pretty! We met up with Tims parents and had brunch together at New Castle Golf Course. De-lish!
Easter was a very special time. My dad has been diagnosed with Cancer and after a few weeks of back and forth regarding his health, the news came that he has a limited time left on this earth with us. I made the decision that Kaydriana and I were going to go spend Easter with him and the rest of the Jones side of the family. Kaydriana did great on the plane! So Kaydriana’s first Easter was spent in California with her Grandpa and Grandma Jones, Aunt Breanna, Uncle Will, Cousin Reid, Uncle Robby, Aunt Jordan, Great Uncle Greg and Aunt Jonna, and second cousins, Chris and Kailyn. We even saw Kyle for a brief time. This was Kaydriana’s first holiday with Grandpa and perhaps her last and it was very special. She and Reid got absolutely spoiled with gifts, Easter Egg hunt and even more gifts. Breanna and I even made them take a bath together for future embarrassment possibilities J I don’t think Reid really knew what to do with his little cousin, but Kaydriana seemed to really like him. Both kids really seemed to enjoy the extra attention and loves.
Within the past few months some of Kaydriana’s miles stones were: taking a few steps, standing/dancing/squatting without holding on, pointing to momma’s nose, saying momma and dada (although not totally going to make them her official first words just yet), has her 7th tooth and it appears a molar is coming in, graduated to the wobbler room in daycare, she started doing this huge smile thing with all of her little teeth showing, she likes to be chased and “scared” by daddy- she gets really excited in anticipation, she has started to give hugs and what I perceive to be kisses (putting her face on my face), she signs “all done” when she’s done eating and has her own sign for “momma”, when she wants me to sing twinkle twinkle little star, she does the finger movements, she loves to play peek a boo – especially when she has the blanket to cover herself or you with, when she hears applause on tv or people say, “yay” she claps, and when you say, “what does Griffey do?” she pants like a dog. She may not be walking and talking yet, but she’s got her own set of adorable skills!
I guess that’s all I can think of for now. I really wanted to get this recorded so I can remember what she accomplished when. I can’t wait to look back and see how far she has come.
As for me… well Kaydriana hasn’t been doing all that well with sleeping through the night since we went to California. I think it was a mixture of messing up her routine, a new tooth coming in, and now she’s got her 3rd cold since starting daycare. Also I think that she’s going through a growth spurt because I hear her tummy growling when she wakes up at 2am. So I’ve been extremely tired. I’m up to three cups of coffee a day. I used to only drink 1 and only in the morning. I think the lack of sleep and then added caffeine is aggravating my issues with anxiety and creating heart palpitations. I’ve been trying to break Kaydriana’s routine of waking up in the middle of the night but when I hear her little tummy growl I know I can’t ignore that. It’s been a very hard past few weeks!
Today was the first time Kaydriana really hurt herself. I let her play on the stairs (yes, I know what a horrible thing to do-especially cuz I kept thinking that I better not let her fall!) but I was impressed that she was remembering what I taught her about going backwards down the stairs (and off the couch). But after a few successful maneuvers she ended up doing a summersault and I can picture her cute little hair up in the pony tail going around and then she slid on her tummy and face a few more stairs-about 10 in all. It’s bringing tears to my eyes right now picture it. Anyway I grab her before she starts round two and discover a few moments later that she has blood pooling out of right side of her mouth. I grab a towel and try to do something with it, but she won’t let me. I found her bottle that she refused to eat earlier and was able to settle her down and she drank it. I just looked at her and was shaking telling her she was ok and that I was sorry. She didn’t have any particular upset or blaming look in her eye, she just looked comforted (Thank God because I don’t think I could have handled the hurt look in her eye). Man! Seeing your baby bleed is a sickening feeling and then knowing it was my fault makes it a lot more upsetting.
I was already feeling bad that she has a bruise on the top of her foot from these decorative blocks I put up in our living room…
Anyway, last week was her first birthday. Her party was a lot of fun (and hectic for mom and dad!) and we had 50 guests total. The weather cooperated for the most part which was a blessing. It was a bit cold and windy, but we had some patches of sun and it only rained for about 5 minutes. We did a Minnie Mouse theme and had ears for the little kids. Kaydriana did a great job of keeping her special Minnie mouse ears on. We BBQd burgers and dogs and I made cupcakes that sat on a Mickey Mouse tower. I made Kaydriana her own big cupcake that she loved eating! She got a lot of great presents. She even received three of the same thing, a Leap Frog My Pal Violet toy. Apparently this is a new and hip toy that many people know about. She absolutely loves it! You can select your own songs, and put your kids names (although we had to choose “Peanut” since ‘Kaydriana’ wasn’t in the catalog of choices and that’s what daddy calls her) and select her fave food, color and animal. She got a lot of cute clothes and fun toys and more books. She is set!
My sister, Breanna got to come and spend a few days with us. I absolutely love time with my sis and we got to spend my first Mothers Day together. I even went along with her while she did a photo shoot for one of my friends. Tim and Kaydri got me this beautiful necklace that is a silhouette of a mom and child with a heart. Very pretty! We met up with Tims parents and had brunch together at New Castle Golf Course. De-lish!
Easter was a very special time. My dad has been diagnosed with Cancer and after a few weeks of back and forth regarding his health, the news came that he has a limited time left on this earth with us. I made the decision that Kaydriana and I were going to go spend Easter with him and the rest of the Jones side of the family. Kaydriana did great on the plane! So Kaydriana’s first Easter was spent in California with her Grandpa and Grandma Jones, Aunt Breanna, Uncle Will, Cousin Reid, Uncle Robby, Aunt Jordan, Great Uncle Greg and Aunt Jonna, and second cousins, Chris and Kailyn. We even saw Kyle for a brief time. This was Kaydriana’s first holiday with Grandpa and perhaps her last and it was very special. She and Reid got absolutely spoiled with gifts, Easter Egg hunt and even more gifts. Breanna and I even made them take a bath together for future embarrassment possibilities J I don’t think Reid really knew what to do with his little cousin, but Kaydriana seemed to really like him. Both kids really seemed to enjoy the extra attention and loves.
Within the past few months some of Kaydriana’s miles stones were: taking a few steps, standing/dancing/squatting without holding on, pointing to momma’s nose, saying momma and dada (although not totally going to make them her official first words just yet), has her 7th tooth and it appears a molar is coming in, graduated to the wobbler room in daycare, she started doing this huge smile thing with all of her little teeth showing, she likes to be chased and “scared” by daddy- she gets really excited in anticipation, she has started to give hugs and what I perceive to be kisses (putting her face on my face), she signs “all done” when she’s done eating and has her own sign for “momma”, when she wants me to sing twinkle twinkle little star, she does the finger movements, she loves to play peek a boo – especially when she has the blanket to cover herself or you with, when she hears applause on tv or people say, “yay” she claps, and when you say, “what does Griffey do?” she pants like a dog. She may not be walking and talking yet, but she’s got her own set of adorable skills!
I guess that’s all I can think of for now. I really wanted to get this recorded so I can remember what she accomplished when. I can’t wait to look back and see how far she has come.
As for me… well Kaydriana hasn’t been doing all that well with sleeping through the night since we went to California. I think it was a mixture of messing up her routine, a new tooth coming in, and now she’s got her 3rd cold since starting daycare. Also I think that she’s going through a growth spurt because I hear her tummy growling when she wakes up at 2am. So I’ve been extremely tired. I’m up to three cups of coffee a day. I used to only drink 1 and only in the morning. I think the lack of sleep and then added caffeine is aggravating my issues with anxiety and creating heart palpitations. I’ve been trying to break Kaydriana’s routine of waking up in the middle of the night but when I hear her little tummy growl I know I can’t ignore that. It’s been a very hard past few weeks!
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
10 Months and a bit more...
Tomorrow is Kaydriana's 10-month birthday, but to be honest I feel a little cheated on time because February is a short month.
Today we had a follow up appt to check on her weight since she lost weight between 8 and 9 months. She has gained 2.3lbs and is now at a whopping 19.1 lbs! I was so relieved to know that she is healthy and right where she needs to be.
Kaydriana hasn't said her first words yet, but she talks and (I believe) sings all the time. She's been saying, "dadada" for a while now, and I hadn't heard her make any, "mmmm" sounds. So every opportunity I get I say, "momma" and press her lips together to show her how to make an "m" sound. Finally she mimmicked me twice and said something close to, "momma". But in my opinion it doesn't officially count until she looks at me and says it. She is starting to realize the words though. A few days ago I said, "Griffey" and she looked at him, then I said, "daddy" and she looked at daddy and then I said, "momma" and she looked at me. That made me very happy!
She is cruising around on her little riding/walking toy. And sometimes she'll give her knees a break when crawling and put her feet on the floor and walk on her feet and hands. It's a funny site! She's a bit of a daredevil. Right before bed time she gets a second wind and loves to be up on the couch where she'll climb over me and Tim and pillows and tumbles. If she gets an invigorating tumble she laughs. I love it! But of course we have to be right there so she doesn't tumble right off the couch while seeking her thrill. She loves to climb on anything just about her size.
Our little smarty pants also discovered a trick. On Saturday 2/28 I was out with the girls and had finally taken a Costco sized box of diapers out of my trunk. They didn't make their way upstairs yet so Kaydriana scooted the box over to the couch where she used the box to climb up on the couch! Maybe we have a genius on our hands!? :P
Some things are coming to end. I'm still breast feeding, but Kaydriana now drinks more formula than she does breastmilk. On the days that I work I'm guessing she is only getting 12-20 oz of BM. The past few weeks she has become very distracted while nursing and this week she has been biting me. Not too hard, but hard enough that it hurts. I really really want to nurse until she is 1 year old, but I don't know if that is going to happen. I know I'll be so sad when that final feeding comes!
The other thing coming to an end is Stay at Home Daddy. This is great news! Tim found out that he will be starting back at Mercer Island for a seasonal position in April. We're still hoping for a permanent city job, but for now this is good. We found a great daycare called the Issaquah Children's Acadamy. Tim's mom knows the owner and we toured it and absolutely love it! It's quite spendy, but I think Kaydriana will thrive in their environment. They are teaching centered and the kids looked so happy to be there. Kaydriana is such a busy body that playing with other kids her age and learning on a daily basis will be so good for her.
Today we had a follow up appt to check on her weight since she lost weight between 8 and 9 months. She has gained 2.3lbs and is now at a whopping 19.1 lbs! I was so relieved to know that she is healthy and right where she needs to be.
Kaydriana hasn't said her first words yet, but she talks and (I believe) sings all the time. She's been saying, "dadada" for a while now, and I hadn't heard her make any, "mmmm" sounds. So every opportunity I get I say, "momma" and press her lips together to show her how to make an "m" sound. Finally she mimmicked me twice and said something close to, "momma". But in my opinion it doesn't officially count until she looks at me and says it. She is starting to realize the words though. A few days ago I said, "Griffey" and she looked at him, then I said, "daddy" and she looked at daddy and then I said, "momma" and she looked at me. That made me very happy!
She is cruising around on her little riding/walking toy. And sometimes she'll give her knees a break when crawling and put her feet on the floor and walk on her feet and hands. It's a funny site! She's a bit of a daredevil. Right before bed time she gets a second wind and loves to be up on the couch where she'll climb over me and Tim and pillows and tumbles. If she gets an invigorating tumble she laughs. I love it! But of course we have to be right there so she doesn't tumble right off the couch while seeking her thrill. She loves to climb on anything just about her size.
Our little smarty pants also discovered a trick. On Saturday 2/28 I was out with the girls and had finally taken a Costco sized box of diapers out of my trunk. They didn't make their way upstairs yet so Kaydriana scooted the box over to the couch where she used the box to climb up on the couch! Maybe we have a genius on our hands!? :P
Some things are coming to end. I'm still breast feeding, but Kaydriana now drinks more formula than she does breastmilk. On the days that I work I'm guessing she is only getting 12-20 oz of BM. The past few weeks she has become very distracted while nursing and this week she has been biting me. Not too hard, but hard enough that it hurts. I really really want to nurse until she is 1 year old, but I don't know if that is going to happen. I know I'll be so sad when that final feeding comes!
The other thing coming to an end is Stay at Home Daddy. This is great news! Tim found out that he will be starting back at Mercer Island for a seasonal position in April. We're still hoping for a permanent city job, but for now this is good. We found a great daycare called the Issaquah Children's Acadamy. Tim's mom knows the owner and we toured it and absolutely love it! It's quite spendy, but I think Kaydriana will thrive in their environment. They are teaching centered and the kids looked so happy to be there. Kaydriana is such a busy body that playing with other kids her age and learning on a daily basis will be so good for her.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
9 Months!
Wow, 9 months already. It’s really hard to wrap my brain around it. I remember giving birth to Kaydriana like it was yesterday. I’m sure I’ll be saying that for the rest of our lives. :) She’s almost been outside of me as long as she was inside-crazy!
Kaydriana no longer seems like a baby to me. I’d consider her more like a toddler. She is becoming so independent- eating with her own little fingers, grunting and reaching to communicate what she wants. She is so mobile and now “furniture walking”. She’s even practiced letting go and standing for a moment. Today I took her to her 9-Month appt. I was sad to hear she has lost weight or didn’t gain any weight (can’t recall) since 6 months. She is eating a lot more, but is also a lot more mobile so I heeded the Drs advice and got her a bunch of new “big kid foods”. Instead of waiting for her 1 yr appt we have to go back in a month for a weight check. I don’t feel like a failure as a mother, just saddened that I’ve let my baby down. Nutrition is so so important at this age for her development and when her dr said it was like she was on a diet I was heart broken. Thankfully she’s a very happy baby and momma and dadda will be sure she is satisfied at every meal!
Sunday was her dedication ceremony. Counting everybody that was there, it was 32 family members and friends that came. I printed one of the group photos and its on my desk at work. It will be my reminder how truly blessed Tim, Kaydriana and I are. My Aunt and Uncle hosted lunch at their house and about 2/3rds of the group came. We ended the lunch with a nice conversation between me, Danielle, Grandma and Aunt Ann. I left feeling so warm and fulfilled – the type of feeling that you only get from the love of family, friends and God. And it didn’t hurt that the Steelers lost the Superbowl :)
As for Tim and I, we’ve certainly adjusted to being parents. Tim is still home with her and it’s funny how I find myself asking what her routine is on my days off. When I was on leave with her, it was all me. Now Tim calls the shots. And I’ve gotta tell ya, it’s been so nice being able to lay her down for a nap and barely a peep comes out of her. That’s all daddy’s doing. Tim is still searching for a full time position. He had an interview for a position, but it wouldn’t have even paid for daycare so that’s not a viable option. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away work 9-11 hr days. Thankfully most days I can coordinate my lunch to be able to come home and feed Kaydriana. The last two nights have been hard because I haven’t been able to and I miss our bedtime routine since I’m working 2-11pm this week.
All in all, the past 9 months has been the best of my life. Even with it’s ups and downs, Kaydriana has made everything worth while, more special, and more meaningful.
Kaydriana no longer seems like a baby to me. I’d consider her more like a toddler. She is becoming so independent- eating with her own little fingers, grunting and reaching to communicate what she wants. She is so mobile and now “furniture walking”. She’s even practiced letting go and standing for a moment. Today I took her to her 9-Month appt. I was sad to hear she has lost weight or didn’t gain any weight (can’t recall) since 6 months. She is eating a lot more, but is also a lot more mobile so I heeded the Drs advice and got her a bunch of new “big kid foods”. Instead of waiting for her 1 yr appt we have to go back in a month for a weight check. I don’t feel like a failure as a mother, just saddened that I’ve let my baby down. Nutrition is so so important at this age for her development and when her dr said it was like she was on a diet I was heart broken. Thankfully she’s a very happy baby and momma and dadda will be sure she is satisfied at every meal!
Sunday was her dedication ceremony. Counting everybody that was there, it was 32 family members and friends that came. I printed one of the group photos and its on my desk at work. It will be my reminder how truly blessed Tim, Kaydriana and I are. My Aunt and Uncle hosted lunch at their house and about 2/3rds of the group came. We ended the lunch with a nice conversation between me, Danielle, Grandma and Aunt Ann. I left feeling so warm and fulfilled – the type of feeling that you only get from the love of family, friends and God. And it didn’t hurt that the Steelers lost the Superbowl :)
As for Tim and I, we’ve certainly adjusted to being parents. Tim is still home with her and it’s funny how I find myself asking what her routine is on my days off. When I was on leave with her, it was all me. Now Tim calls the shots. And I’ve gotta tell ya, it’s been so nice being able to lay her down for a nap and barely a peep comes out of her. That’s all daddy’s doing. Tim is still searching for a full time position. He had an interview for a position, but it wouldn’t have even paid for daycare so that’s not a viable option. Meanwhile, I’m plugging away work 9-11 hr days. Thankfully most days I can coordinate my lunch to be able to come home and feed Kaydriana. The last two nights have been hard because I haven’t been able to and I miss our bedtime routine since I’m working 2-11pm this week.
All in all, the past 9 months has been the best of my life. Even with it’s ups and downs, Kaydriana has made everything worth while, more special, and more meaningful.
Monday, December 27, 2010
Connection
Christmas day is always so hectic, but I wanted to make sure I took the time to reflect on what Christmas means and specifically what it means to me. So the weeks leading up to Christmas I would use my 10 minute commute to and from work (40 min total since I go home to feed Kaydriana during lunch) to listen to Christmas music and praise God and thank Him for giving us His Son and blessing me and my family.
I heard Faith Hills, "A Baby Changes Everything" song. For the first time in my life I really felt a connection to Mary. Now that I have a baby, when I heard those lyrics (and Mary Did You Know and another one that I heard for the first time this year) I picture Kaydriana. No, I'm not comparing her to Jesus-but I picture Mary holding her son, her sweet baby boy who needs his mom to take care of him, love him, teach him, etc. Mary knew her son was something extra special. What an amazing feeling to be a mom-could you imagine the love and pride and joy she felt as he grew and learned new milestones? What kind of boy was he? How did she entertain him? What games did they play? Did he cry when he was hungry? Did Mary grow weary when Jesus was up all night teething? What have I experienced being a new mommy that Mary did as well?
Being a mom has connected me to millions and millions of mothers all over the world and throughout history. I've never felt this type of connectivity before. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this insight.
Moving on to Christmas... as I mentioned Christmas is hectic. Christmas Eve, I cooked the "Costco Turkey" along with some side dishes and my mom brought my little sister and brother over along with "Aunt Norma's Potatos". My older brother was spending the evening with his girlfriend and her family. We opened presents and watched some of the old claymation classics like Rudolph the Rednosed Reigndeer. We ate so much (and fast!) that we didn't end up eating the berry pie my mom brought.
Christmas day, Kaydriana (our little alarm clock) woke us up about 615am. I fed her and then went downstairs to see what Santa brought her. I'd like to say her eyes lit up and a smile grew on her face, but it really wasn't all that exciting to her. Tim put her on her big "Santa gift" which was a giraffe and I took pictures of her. Then we sat around her to open presents and she'd get fixated on a piece of paper she'd have in her hand. She protested when we would remove the paper and try to get her to open her next gift. Meanwhile, Griffey squeeked his new toys and kept trying to be in the mix with us while we opened our gifts.
After our intimate family time, we packed up and headed to Tim's parents where on the way we learned that our niece, Anna was in the emergency room. The Drs still aren't sure whats going on, but she did make it to Nana and Papas for Christmas dinner and presents. After about 20 minutes I took Kaydriana and we headed to my Aunts house so we could say hi to everyone for a moment then went back to Tims parents to finish the evening. I also got to talk with my dad and step mom, my sister and my niece in MI. I don't usually have a lot of time to talk on the phone, so at least car rides allow me the opportunity for calls to my family.
Although nothing spectacular happened per se, I'd have to say it was one of the nicest and memorable Christmas's I've ever had... A baby changes everything is right!
I heard Faith Hills, "A Baby Changes Everything" song. For the first time in my life I really felt a connection to Mary. Now that I have a baby, when I heard those lyrics (and Mary Did You Know and another one that I heard for the first time this year) I picture Kaydriana. No, I'm not comparing her to Jesus-but I picture Mary holding her son, her sweet baby boy who needs his mom to take care of him, love him, teach him, etc. Mary knew her son was something extra special. What an amazing feeling to be a mom-could you imagine the love and pride and joy she felt as he grew and learned new milestones? What kind of boy was he? How did she entertain him? What games did they play? Did he cry when he was hungry? Did Mary grow weary when Jesus was up all night teething? What have I experienced being a new mommy that Mary did as well?
Being a mom has connected me to millions and millions of mothers all over the world and throughout history. I've never felt this type of connectivity before. I'm thankful for the opportunity for this insight.
Moving on to Christmas... as I mentioned Christmas is hectic. Christmas Eve, I cooked the "Costco Turkey" along with some side dishes and my mom brought my little sister and brother over along with "Aunt Norma's Potatos". My older brother was spending the evening with his girlfriend and her family. We opened presents and watched some of the old claymation classics like Rudolph the Rednosed Reigndeer. We ate so much (and fast!) that we didn't end up eating the berry pie my mom brought.
Christmas day, Kaydriana (our little alarm clock) woke us up about 615am. I fed her and then went downstairs to see what Santa brought her. I'd like to say her eyes lit up and a smile grew on her face, but it really wasn't all that exciting to her. Tim put her on her big "Santa gift" which was a giraffe and I took pictures of her. Then we sat around her to open presents and she'd get fixated on a piece of paper she'd have in her hand. She protested when we would remove the paper and try to get her to open her next gift. Meanwhile, Griffey squeeked his new toys and kept trying to be in the mix with us while we opened our gifts.
After our intimate family time, we packed up and headed to Tim's parents where on the way we learned that our niece, Anna was in the emergency room. The Drs still aren't sure whats going on, but she did make it to Nana and Papas for Christmas dinner and presents. After about 20 minutes I took Kaydriana and we headed to my Aunts house so we could say hi to everyone for a moment then went back to Tims parents to finish the evening. I also got to talk with my dad and step mom, my sister and my niece in MI. I don't usually have a lot of time to talk on the phone, so at least car rides allow me the opportunity for calls to my family.
Although nothing spectacular happened per se, I'd have to say it was one of the nicest and memorable Christmas's I've ever had... A baby changes everything is right!
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Our baby is not such a baby anymore!
Oh man, our lil poo bear is not a baby anymore! Ever since she hit 6 months old, she has transitioned from being a baby to becoming a toddler. She got her first tooth (now has two), started to do the splits thing that eventually turned into her learning how to sit on her own, can pick up cereal and place it in her mouth, started crawling, and two days ago used the shelf in the fridge to stand herself up.
What happened to my stationary little bug? She is already 7 months old and before I know it she'll be 1 going on 18.
Kaydriana has had a rough time with teething. She gets very whiny and sometimes downright unconsolable. We now go about 2-3 nights a week where she wakes up crying. Many times she'll get herself back to sleep but other nights only loves from mommy or daddy will get her back to sleep.
This week has been extremely rough! I went away last weekend for my 30th birthday to Vegas. It was hard being away from Kaydriana that long, but I had fun. The last day I regretted booking an afternoon flight. I should have booked the first flight home. When I got home I did not want to let her go and I think maybe she felt the same way. That night and the next two she didn't want to sleep and I was forced to try to function with only 4 hours of sleep for three days. Last night I finally got about 6 hours, THANK GOD! I'm still exhausted, but at least not dizzy feeling. (I turned into a wall on Tuesday after making a very firm statement to an employee... I'm sure my authoratitive tone was lost once I looked like a goober).
I'm off the next two days and while I should probably come into work for a few hours I really think that I deserve some me time with my baby. Daddy is going snowboarding all day tomorrow and as a family we have a wedding and a dinner to attend on Saturday.
Okay, so now I'm just rambling. My point of all this is my baby is growing up so fast and I feel like I missing some of it. I want to capture every moment and not let any slip by. No more weekend trips for me for a long time!
What happened to my stationary little bug? She is already 7 months old and before I know it she'll be 1 going on 18.
Kaydriana has had a rough time with teething. She gets very whiny and sometimes downright unconsolable. We now go about 2-3 nights a week where she wakes up crying. Many times she'll get herself back to sleep but other nights only loves from mommy or daddy will get her back to sleep.
This week has been extremely rough! I went away last weekend for my 30th birthday to Vegas. It was hard being away from Kaydriana that long, but I had fun. The last day I regretted booking an afternoon flight. I should have booked the first flight home. When I got home I did not want to let her go and I think maybe she felt the same way. That night and the next two she didn't want to sleep and I was forced to try to function with only 4 hours of sleep for three days. Last night I finally got about 6 hours, THANK GOD! I'm still exhausted, but at least not dizzy feeling. (I turned into a wall on Tuesday after making a very firm statement to an employee... I'm sure my authoratitive tone was lost once I looked like a goober).
I'm off the next two days and while I should probably come into work for a few hours I really think that I deserve some me time with my baby. Daddy is going snowboarding all day tomorrow and as a family we have a wedding and a dinner to attend on Saturday.
Okay, so now I'm just rambling. My point of all this is my baby is growing up so fast and I feel like I missing some of it. I want to capture every moment and not let any slip by. No more weekend trips for me for a long time!
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